he's...gone...

i will never get to see him again.

"HEY SAM!!"




it's moments like these that i wish i would get closer to people.
but then i think about it a little more and i'm glad that i don't..i can't handle losing anything.. let alone loved ones.

i knew as i sat in my bed after my three hour nap watching the flashing ambulance lights that something was terribly wrong.
especially as they continued to flash for hours...

and i just sat there...


rest in peace, buddy.
i know you're up there with Jesus and a camera... relaxing... smiling...
the world's been lifted off your shoulders.
i miss you.